DISCOMBOBULATION...

DISCOMBOBULATION...
loadedpenvibes.com
Style: narrative poem

How broken I am inside
Listen,  how the story begins
Behind the lonely life
There is a lot to share

Happy home,
Dived in the river of mirth
We are family, in one tone
We are partners, hearts are one
Love shone like daffodils in bloom
Sang like cockatoos, sweet and melodious.

Suddenly, a blot came out from the blue
I was twelve when imperial assassins
Ransacked the happiest home
Blood advertised it colour
My eyes was clouded with tears
I was the only soul left

Senior killer bean saw me I tried to run
Abruptly he held my little arms with his burning gaze
I felt like the ground should open up
Swallow me without my consent
He starred at me for minutes
Then took me to the brothel

A little girl me was caressed
Received punches and got labeled
Rutters of trials and tribulations
Hardship falling like stormy rain storms
For I refused to lay my little like an abandoned wood
I refused to allowing myself naked

Years passed, I became a leviathan
Crawling around the world
Hurting those who run
From my sexual ability
High like a boulder rock
Screaming with joy

Years passed, I started whoring around terristial globe
Flashing buttocks under the barns
For I am the siren
Luring men with my captivating music
Singing voices to death

I became incubus and succubus
The abomination of nature
Monster on land
Princess of the power of the air
My pictures can wake dead cock
Supernatural remedy for the flesh

Killer bean with opened mouth saw the then young little girl
Became the fire breathing three headed monster
Am angel and demon
 I walked up to him in my coruscating figure
Enticed him with my lithered lissom gymnasium body
Tried to give him grim reaper for what he had caused

He resisted my amorous advances
his burning gaze calmed down
Went away, fought his heart and brain
dwelt in blues, sixes and sevens

until one day an angelic guy walked up to me
to relax in our galore brothel
He sprawled out on my softie bed
I tried my amorous advances but resisted
and said to me in a low voice REMEMBER THE CHILD OF WHOM YOU HER

I stirred the havoc memories
He felt sad along side me and patted me
I fell head over heels in love with him
We loved each other deeply down our heart
I forgot the monster I was

But still remain in the  brothel
To break loose me cost arms and legs
Requires imperial order, for we are imperial whore
lots of love we shared hatred we tried to repel
for what we shared was strong
and our heart like the bell rung till death do us part

My angelic love was ravaged just like my parents were
I screamed voila!! You again killer bean
no one to come to my aid
his eyes brimmed with tears
then I knew it wasn't his wish
then I knew how much he loved me

One morning, sudden tap on my shoulder
Said to me you have been broke loose from this brothel
opening of my eyes like flowers from buds
I did not bother to ask who was behind the fluke
senior killer bean starred at me from afar,  and followed me
Till I walk a dreary mile towards the smokey south

I heard a bold word I WAS BEHIND YOUR RELEASE
I looked back, smiled thou pains were peacefully Blooming
but were not visible to see
behind my veins made of mints
I ran towards him, gave him a huge hug
I tried submerged myself into the pool of lucid bliss

deeply, I went bitterly and concealed my pains
my face radiance hid my grief
I heard him said I LOVE YOU
he is ready to stand down the cloak job
live a peaceful live with me
till death do us part

After he stood down the dirty job
his heart was beating like talking drum
Whoever stand down the job must be killed
he tried hiding I'm every nook and cranny part of the city
To save my glamorous life and his unsettled soul
but we were trailed everywhere like MTN

steps to get out of the bloody city
assassins fell on us from the blue
Killer bean fought gallantly
Being their leader he taught them all
so it was an easy defeat

I thought that was all until I saw
full loaded assassins with bloody arms
then I knew killer bean was a real killer
strong and we'll muscled but weak in the heart
simple and kind yet cruel and crafty
walked all night sleep the whole day

Gave out his rations to the hungry
Yet beat them up when ordered
Ambassador of peace yet a warmonger
Defended his nation against external aggression
Spent days in the jungle training
Spent months ideal
In the barrack

senior killer moved the rug from their feet
swept them with all wipes
that not all,  I could see arrows pointed out at me
killer saved me and all hit him
at the brink of death he said to me I LOVE YOU

my mind an endless tempest of confusion
Will it never rest it restlessness
You forever sullen me, broke my heart
Monster pray with prey
with all the countless stroke of pains he had fell
upon me, should I go on keeping strong?

Should I continue the hatred towards him?
Or just forgive him?
I can't even touch his body
they are electric
From the start till now

I stared at him hating him
yet so important
It hard to finish him
he tried to create heals
for all the pain that haunted me like a ghost
But I have bunch of questions

I looked at him with a trance of rancour
the pain he made me passed through
With tears falling like a steady rain
my body fell the day I forgot to ask
why he had died through all pains, at my hand?

 Am consumed by wanderlust
Everything out of my league
Everything is invisible invincible
But deep inside is a burning colossal cauldron

I fell asleep every night
With tears gushing out from my old young eyes
he seemed to have made me felt sad and happy....

Ismail Junaid Oluwadamilare

Paciolo pen saint